Celebrating the Resurrection when all you feel is Death

Easter. It seems incredibly impossible to celebrate the resurrection of Christ, when everything around you feels dead. Your family is gone – but rejoice, Christ has risen. Your friends are scattered – but rejoice- Christ has risen. You feel an overwhelming sense of sadness- but rejoice, Christ has risen. You walk into the nursery at Church … Continue reading Celebrating the Resurrection when all you feel is Death

Dear Readers

It was brought to my attention on Friday that I had some new readers. Critical readers. Readers who know my past. Actually, they don’t know my past. They think they know my past because they know part of it so they criticize. Well, actually, they gossip. Honestly, I was really angry when I found out. … Continue reading Dear Readers

Fight for Me

“Sometimes someone hurts you so much, it stops hurting at all.” And then sometimes you’re the one doing the hurting.  And sometimes, you never meant to hurt anyone, but you still just want someone to fight for you. Fight for me Love me Choose me Accept me But you stand there alone watching other peoples stories unfold wishing you could be … Continue reading Fight for Me


The purpose exceeds the pain, But the pain feels bigger than the unknown purpose. Purpose? Purpose for what?Purpose for living? Purpose for loving? Purpose…. Why am I here?The question evading. I hear the question in the silence,I hear it in the crowds. The questions are yet unanswered…lingering questions, lingering doubts. The purpose for grief,no one … Continue reading Purpose


Some things just don’t make sense. Suffering. It doesn’t makes sense to me. Maybe it’s not supposed to make sense, but in my human mind it seems so sporadic and random. It seems like it falls on some people and then passes by others. I know, I know, everyone goes through hard times. But I’m … Continue reading Walls

What really is Forever

“Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room. Memorize what it sounded like when you dad gets home. Remember the footsteps, remember the words said-And all your little brother’s favorite songs. I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone…Oh, I don’t wanna grow up, wish I’d never grown up- I could still be little…Oh I don’t … Continue reading What really is Forever